Memoirs of a Fallen Angel

Wow!! Has it been awhile...

2009-06-09T13:48:00.000-07:00

So....since my last post...I have moved...which to most is such a big undertaking that one tends to go completely insane in the process, requiring one to ask their local Psych for meds to make brain return to normal...thankfully, I was already quite crazy to begin with so no meds for me....I have started writing full time....well as mush as full time is at least a few hours every day with the benefits of a co author most of those who has gotten use to my craziness...as seem above and is less likely to talk to his psych into offering me said meds to calm me down or him down depending on how much of an influence I am on him...I just hope I don't drive him to drink, since that's what my hubby says...though I think he just likes an excuse to have a cold beer when he gets home....I have both kids home....the blessed school year is over and has now opened up the summer to both my kids and now that having a backyard is wonderful, there is still the nagging 'moms' that come with both kids home....and they wonder why I am crazy....try having a three year old and an eight year old who are polar opposites of each other in a house where their mommy is trying hard to write...I have learned to have selective hearing...whether it be cries or crashes.....thankfully, each still has all their limbs and they are still in one piece.....So if you wonder where I have gone....see above. All other complaints....well, email me!!! ;)

Happy St. Paddy's Day!!

2009-02-27T11:16:00.000-08:00

May the road rise up to meet you.

May the wind always be at your back.

May the sun shine warm upon your face,

and rains fall soft upon your fields.

And until we meet again,

May God hold you

in the palm of His hand.

2008-12-10T17:53:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!

May your family be close to your heart, your heart be warm with love, and your love be on the reason for the season, Jesus!!

Quote of the Month

2008-11-28T15:55:00.000-08:00

'Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, martini in the other .. body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming 'WOO HOO what a ride!!"

Happy Halloween

2008-10-28T22:09:00.000-07:00

Hope everyone has a Happy and Safe Halloween!!!!

Poetry from My heart

2008-09-30T17:28:00.000-07:00

And oh those lips crave heat
burned with a passion only dragons
and phoenix know of
Where embers scorch these souls marked
by the temperate song of fiery flames
Marvels dance in front of sapphire eyes
and bare bodies flow like liquid mercury
dangerous to touch, but beauty to behold.....

Fall is Here

2008-09-23T13:38:00.000-07:00

Crackling leaves under foot
Wood burning in the air
Goblins dancing with pillowcases full
and Turkeys dreading dinner

Fall comes and Fall goes
Red and yellow, orange and gold
Like the smoke from our breath in morning
and the hint of Winter chills our nose.

by R.P. Blotzer

Something I wrote for a contest over at Medusa's Kitchen - http://medusaskitchen.blogspot.com/

Check it out if you want.

My Quote for the Week

2008-09-18T23:07:00.000-07:00

Judge not, for do we not all have dark

secrets we would rather leave buried in graveyards of denial?!

The Question

2008-09-15T14:57:00.001-07:00

and they say night is meant for the things that go bump

and the things that scare and horrify,

but i like the night and the dark and the things that go bump

so I pray tell which am I?

Definitely Worth a Second or Third Read

2008-09-13T12:10:00.000-07:00

POWER OF PUSSY

by Sandy Patsy

I have been promising a review for the last few weeks and here it is.
"When I first picked up this book, I was a bit skepical. Most of the books I read are at least a few hundred pages, but I promised to read it so open it, I did. What I found was the craziest and funniest story I have ever read. Though most men wouldn't find it as amusing as us women, the advice and knowledge Sandy passes on to us makes us nod our heads in agreement or just huff and say 'yup, that is definitely the honest to God truth.' By the end, I was agreeing that sometimes the black widow and the preying mantis have it right. The sex is definitely good, but afterwards, you just want to bite off their heads.'I would recommend this book to anyone with a sense of humor and, well, a pussy. LOL!!"

Open Me Up

2008-08-16T12:07:00.000-07:00

open me up

Spill my blood

Remind me that I hurt

Open me up

Find my heart

Throw it to the floor

Open me up

Read the book

Find what needs to be found

Open me up

judge my soul

Tear through my inner being

Open me up

each cut deep

Remove the mask I bear

Open me up

look and see

for herein lies....Me.

My Morning Mistress

2008-06-23T09:29:00.000-07:00

Morning mistress awake me
with your sweet serenity
Hues of brown and tan I see
Playing with my sanity
Sleep you seem to stir away
As I prepare for this day
Breathing your perfume I know
Reminds me that soon you'll go
So right now spend with me
My morning mistress I call coffee.

Happy St Paddy's Day

2008-03-04T12:47:00.000-08:00

Hope it is as lucky as it can be!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2007-12-03T12:57:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!

Plastic

2007-11-15T06:28:00.000-08:00

By R.P. Blotzer

“I hate you, I hate, despise, and loathe you
And I want to tear, rip and shred you from the inside out
You are weak, emotional, needy,
Far too demanding for this one soul to bear.
You use me and abuse the very core
Of my pathetic being
Making me forget what being human is.
Your slogan is love, but you forget
It is I you are to love first. Hasn’t life
At least taught you that?
Maybe I am not perfect,
A bit far from the cover of some
Fashion magazine,
Trading beauty and popularity
Where a personality matters most.
Maybe my way is not
Like what others tend to do,
Saying and doing things untrue
Pretending to be something they’re not
But I am different, a fact you use
To believe, too.
Where truth was a banner
We held together and
Beauty was still skin deep.
Maybe my social skills lack the muster of
Those so-called friends you entertain,
With their plastic ways and mixed up lies
Served with smiles so fake and kindness
That will be required to pay back in time.
But I am one of a kind and that will
Never change.
Call me old fashioned, a dying breed
Of a dying way, where
Honor and generosity still meant
What they were suppose to.
You see, I hate, despise and loathe you,
That may be true,
But I am also required to love you

none

2007-07-27T16:23:00.000-07:00

Crimson regret flows
From veins of mortal men
While black hearts drip upon
The face of innocent ones
Iron masks show no sign
Of mercy, nor of pain
While the moon pales
And the stars rain
Down their wrath
Upon the virgin soil
Sovereign Darkness reigns
Where light is now forgot
Malice and its partner Hate
Continue their cruel waltz
As good and Love watch
From cages barred with fear

Homesick

2007-07-06T09:12:00.000-07:00

"I have no home
No place I belong
Still I wonder through this land
Where they tell me I am part
I feel alone and very empty
Like something just ain’t right
How can one who is a part feel
So different and so lost…"

The Dance

2007-06-22T12:53:00.001-07:00

Keys of Ivory, ebony play
as the couple dance
Caught up in the eve so sweet
a beautiful romance
He takes her hand, gently guides
she smiles at him so
They twirl across the floor so free
neither wanting to let go
Love is there, its soft embrace
holding them so dear
Neither thinking of the past, the now
No future do they fear
Completely enraptured in their love
and forever never part
The sweetness of their lives, you see
will live on in my heart.
by me 2004

Drowning

2007-06-18T21:00:00.000-07:00

Further I slip from your grasp
Slowly falling into the depths
You smile as you say goodbye
I wonder what you mean
The waters close about my head
I feel that I can't breathe
My life flashes before my eyes
Dark, clouded images, full of regret
As I clasp my hand to my chest
My lungs, finally gasp for air
It is them I realize the truth
I am not the one who's drowning.
by me 2004

Mirror'd

2007-06-16T07:45:00.000-07:00

A deformed face
A familiar look
A different angle
A subtle approach
A silver coating
A brass frame
A beautiful image
A shattered dream
A mirror with two faces
A face with no name.

R.P. Blotzer 1997

The Golden Compass

2007-06-13T19:35:00.001-07:00

This is the first in the Dark Materials books by Philip Pullman. the movie is set to release in December of this year. The official websight is a blast, especially for people wondering what those animals are at the bottom of my blog. Just click on the image and it should take you there. Watch the trailer, read the book, and let me know what you think. For Harry Potter fans, you just might like it, too.

Dying

2007-06-11T18:16:00.002-07:00

Heaven's Rapture
Hell's Gain
Earth's Sorrow
Sky's Shame
Ground's Opening
Grave's Closing
Death's Beginning
Life's Ending

by me 1996

Mask

2007-06-07T20:13:00.000-07:00

Not myself
but part of me
Hiding things
I cannot see
The real me
Nobody knows
The person inside
No one can see
Masks abound
but who I am
Not alive
yet, feel pain
Cannot be
The real me
Hidden deep
inside my mask

by R.P. Blotzer 2004

Universe

2007-06-06T22:13:00.000-07:00

Unknown entities
Night skies
Infinitely chnaging
Venturing Far
Emerging in Remote and distant lands
Remote and distant lands
Soaring, tumbling, gliding
Entites unknown

by me 1996

Dreams

2007-06-05T14:18:00.001-07:00

A world without end
in the midst of a storm
An eternity spent
but not a second scorned
A blissful oblivion
among the darkest night
An imagenation away
the switch of a light.
R.P. Blotzer 1996

Welcome

2007-06-05T13:36:00.002-07:00

If you're a dreamer, come in, come in...

I just love Shel Silverstein, his poems make me laugh and laugh. If you have not read his books, do so. Here are some of the titles...Where the Sidewalk Ends and A Light in the Attic. Great Books so look them up...

Artwork with Pazazz

2007-06-04T22:36:00.000-07:00

This is just a little plug for caedes.net. I love this website. People are wonderful here and are nice to get to know. If you might be looking for wallpaper for your computer, or just wanting to hang out and chat. We will leave the proverbial light on for you. :))

Death

2007-06-04T17:03:00.000-07:00

D..eep within the ground I sleep
slumbering from the life I led
E..arth and wood they cover me
dirt spread from the ones I love
A..fraid to face the afterlife
only now I face the door
T..error surrounds my every thought
eyes glowing, teeth bared
H..aunting voices from my past
screaming, moaning, calling for my soul.

by R.P. Blotzer 1999

Home

2007-06-03T14:58:00.000-07:00

Oh sweet love enraptuing
in your folds do I reside
In your arms I cling eternally
Safely for to hide
Away from all the world's concerns
in you, I find my rest
Beyond the cares of mortal men
for peace, you are the best
No one can find me here
No one, my heart to break
Wapped inside this shell of love
A feeling, no one can take
Forever will I live inside
never more to roam
this wonderful, marvelous place
for which I will call HOME
by R.P. Blotzer 2004